troubled teen...

5.11.2009

Lee, reality check time.

you saw ur ex-gf opposite your class today, with a bunch of guys, and supposedly one of those guy is her current bf, and you don't dare to look up, cause you are just such a heartbreaker that you didn't even know how to react.

you are in the same class with a girl that you broke her heart several times in the past, and she totally hates you, but yet you miss her often these days.

you are given so much pressure at work, and you got no reason why. worst still, you ain't paid the correct way you are suppose to.

you tried making yourself loved, but being nice, and make really dumb ass jokes, but none cares.

you watched 17 again, and you realized, life is so bad, and that you are gonna miss out a lot in Poly, if you don't get yourself back on feet again. you only have 1 more year to go, and you are going into reality.

i will take down problem 1 by 1, step by step.

checklist done.

I will treat u as anyone, no difference, no special. Beth, i'm tired of you not looking at me, even in class. i don't want this to affect anymore, and it will affect our studies, some day, don't say it wouldn't.
Please, i'm tired, i will treat u like anyone, i won't say things that you don't like to hear, if you don't like it, tell me, so i can change. i'm not asking for anything, i just wanna be your classmate, be it, thats all.

i'm sorry i once mentioned such nasty words to you. making you my no. 1 hate list. i'm tired of school, i'm tired of working so hard, so i can get a good result and get out of here. but i have to do it, with no reason why i'm pushing on. but i want nothing to be a reason why i have already pushed so hard, and give up now.

i will do my best, and treat you as a classmate now, nothing special, nothing of past. once school time is over, let it be ok? i know u been working hard on hating me, but hate me outside class. really.. thanks.

fading away; 8:10 PM