troubled teen...

4.27.2008

I have to share about my clubbing experience.
OMG it was totally fun!!!!!!

It was such a last min clubbing ask, but i knew i cannot reject.
My cousin! yes.. his birthday, and i was asked when i reached my grandma's birthday party.
His birthday was 2 days ago, but i promised him i will bring him out.

It was boring! totally.the whole of it, both my cousins are entertaining their own frds. They didn't even cared about me. And for those who knew me, i never like to grind with gurls, or hang out with them.

Then i keep bumping into this 2 guys when i was in the dancefloor, i was apologizing, and he do the same. well, then here came the worst..there is this guy who pushed me from the back with force making me almost worst, and he did it purposely. I didn't picked a fight, but rather apologize. i didn't want it to turn out a bad night. Then came these 2 ladies, pretty of course, dancing next to me. of course, i turned 90dg, and faced away. yes i am gay!!! HAHA, no i'm not.

anyways, i told these 2 guys who were actually beside me, looking at me, to get these gurls. One of the guy says they do not come here for gurls, because 1 of them has a gf, and the one talking to me is gay. YEs, he is the GAY, not good-looking, adorable and young, but the real time gay.

i told him, i am going gay soon, WHY? cause its a sausage fest! actually i didn't take the initiative to grind girls. haha. anways, i went out for a chill, then i saw the both of them, they asked me why am i lonely?, then i say my frds are in the dancefloor, and we start talking. the gay guy was really cute, not handsome, but if i'm gay, i would go after him.

Then i told them my cousin's frds are looking for pussy. but they are always dancing amongst them, and all guys. haha, so the straight guy told me that he will help them. then i was like -.-"
when he got in, he saw my cousin's frd, he told them straight on the face, CMON MAN, LETS LOOK FOR SOME GIRLS. and they were SHOCKed!

HOw the hell, a stranger telling me to look for girls? then i explained that i just knew them. And yes u know what happened? HAHA, this bunch of girls, been around us since the start, came pass. My cousin's frd were into them, cause they are "cute". Well, they walked pass, the straight guy went off to look for them, pulling my cousin's frd along. Well, when we saw them again, the girl came dancing off with the straight guy, and since then, he pulled them,"my cousin's frd, and the bunch of girls" into a circle, and do all sorts of "boi and boi dance" to attract their attention. The dancefloor was about to end already, about 30 mins or so, but i was drifting off with the gay guy. Then suddenly came in the real music. We actually make a small circle that can covers about 10 people, for us 7 people. 3 gurls, and 4 guys excluding me.

The music was so powerful that we were dancing liek crazy. here is teh fun part, the straight guy keep pulling everyone in to dance in that circle, inclusive of the girls. Do imagine how much fun it is, when u see guys and girls staring at us, enjoying our dance, and they themselves feeling so jealous. So we, the straight and me, spotted 2 lady, with a bunch of guys staring at us, with a boring look. And slowly, when the music get even hotter, we were shouting and screaming like crazy, people 2 - 3 metres away are like STARING! And even do the hand bounce aiming at us. HAHA! WE owned the dance floor!totally!!!! We saw so many bored facial expression looking at us in envious-ness. Wow, after the last music ended, we had a while to talked, and we mentioned that we OWNED the dance floor, and we start screaming again. The girls and my cousin's frd, with the 2 guys are totally awesome. But where was my cousin? Yes, he was out there. Away from us. He is bored. he didn't look very happy, cause he missed out too much fun. but we all knew that we really had fun, i didn't asked for any girl's no. i think i'm going gay soon. really. i have to say the straight guy, was so much fun, the gay guy, his really nice and cool.

fading away; 5:36 AM

4.03.2008

i cant forget last night..
just cant forget about it.
i spent a hell lots of money, on drinking and stuff.
its all worth it. once in hell while..
who is she..

fading away; 12:52 PM