Sunflower, once treated by the natives Incaus as Sun God.
its strength, its beauty,
its ability to survive even the toughest weather.
blooms in the strongest sunlight,
absorbing its ray,
shining through out the day.
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things are just like this.
i try many a time to cover,
but it still leaks.
try again and again.
when there is an entrance, there will always be an exit.
fading away; 11:14 PM
after tomorrow,
it will be 2 days off for me.
it has been long since i had any day off for weekends.
man, i am so gonna enjoy this weekend,
and make the full use out of it.
any ladies, care for a date?
fading away; 10:10 PM
the wind blew,
the clouds drew,
time has come,
battle begun,
sail rose,
walls risen,
wine tossed,
comes the blows
within hides the rainbow,
such a beauty behind the caged window.
a very good question.
are friends forever?
would the best-est of friends fight over a girl?
would you hate me, if i liked the same girl as u do?
its so easy to differentiate whats a really best friend,
and a jealous friend.
its quite clear that i see clearly.
till date, i still see empty promises.
till date, i still see none i can speak of truth.
whatever, its time i move on now.
its time, that destiny shows its path.
fading away; 9:57 PM
i suddenly have this thought.
i like girls who are mature
girls who can control
girls who takes control
girls who actually care to control
Analogy: its just like serving a customer,
when going thru the products/objects/subjects,
we as a server, should leash the customer,
and bring them along, not them leashing us bringing us along.
i like girls who can leash me,
makes me follow her, willingly,
just a random thought.
but i still miss her,
i wonder how she is doing,
even though her heart is not with me,
my heart is pounding for her,
will do, and for a really long time.
fading away; 1:04 AM
mua miss her.
miss miss miss,
would she miss me?
today saw my ex customer from audio house.
cute "Indonesian" (I guess), pretty too.
when i saw her, i thought for a moment,
where have i seen this pretty lady before.
o, yes, audio house.
pretty lady with that cute attitude,
mua like *SLURPS*.
fading away; 10:41 PM
i think i am starting to feel weird
suddenly, i start to realize things,
such as the way she act cute
the way she talks,
walks, and the way she looks at me
i believed i didn't took a clean look be4.
words coming out, like a lullaby
actions feels like a dancing angel
i really wish i did initiate a little bit of something.
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o wells,
my this sem result, not good. Z_z
fading away; 11:18 PM
i messed up..
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
fading away; 12:03 AM
the gay post,
that was totally random.
Foo's Post Celebration.
lots of pictures.
but i wont upload.
want see some really candid? and "nice" pictures?
msn mua, i send u some really nice classics *winks*
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work work work
work until wan die already.
damn it.
life ain't easy. lucky i have some home entertainment.
am watching this show called, 樱野3加1
its a pretty entertaining show,
but rather draggy and slow.
but i like the part that they say,
tell the person that you like/love,
if not, you never ever have the chance.
its pretty profound from the way i see it.
i wanna tell someone i really like/love her.
i did it in the past,
but getting a heartache is just the start of the conclusion.
"mirror mirror on the wall,
tell whose the prettiest of them all?
for none have i seen so far,
but just damned dolls" - Mua(Me)
something to share.
"a person needs love to live,
without love,
its like breathing without oxygen,
like emotions without feelings,
like walking with a blindfold." - my very good friend, Julia.
"It is with true love as it is with ghosts;
everyone talks about it, but few have seen it." -Francois De La Rochefoucauld
ASK
"Ask and you will receive,
Seek and you will find,
Knock and the door will open for you" - Word of God.
some random qoutes,
just some thoughts.
fading away; 1:05 AM
woman are just so "FAN"!
no, i hate woman
i wan be gay!
i lub guys!
maybe..
there are really good looking cute gay guys out there.
fading away; 11:10 PM
i just need to be better.
more better
more better.
fading away; 2:12 AM
當我想起你 - 張學友
this is a title of a song by Jacky Cheung.
A chinese version of Only Love - Trademark.
so beautiful.
everytime i think of you,
i.. get wet.. (MY GOD!!!)
nah, just some teasers,
yeah, life hasn't been all round great.
i got things i want to say,
i want to complain.
but i cannot find anyone.
no one wants to listen
it seems that i have a motormouth,
i just cant seem to keep quiet.
once i'm quiet,
i cant even be bothered. haha!
miss her miss her!
but too bad,
cant miss her too much,
cause she don't miss me. :(
fading away; 1:09 AM
feb 18th - 19th.
i'm thinking of you.
i do not know why,
i got no idea,
but it seems that i been thinking of you often.
work was so stressful,
i been complaining since day 16th till date,
and the following morning, which is in 8 hours time,
would be last day at the area.
i wanna talk to someone
i wish i can tell someone about everything
and that someone give me a hug,
and says, it will all be well.
well, i thought of you.
you came to my mind often, recently.
smiles came to my face, at the thought of you.
nights got sweeter.
yeah, its impossible between us.
you have someone else already,
but each time i thought about it,
i'm so jealous. it cant be.
i'm suppose to be wishing you happiness.
but yeah..
fading away; 1:37 AM
whats that ticking sound?
whats that trembling feeling?
whats that quiet tocking sound?
whats that tumbling feeling?
shhh...
shhh..?
shhh!!
don't talk, but listen.
what is that?
why did it happen?
fading away; 12:14 AM
It is Valentine's day today.
all about love, care and share.
the day where Saint Valentine sacrificed himself,
for the word "love + marriage".
I was with Julia the whole night.
For those do not know who she is,
she is my ex, way during secondary school days.
well, we do bitch about when we talk now.
like some gay bitches, whatever it is.
we hang over at shi-sha(SS), haji lane,
took our time and relax over dinner with PEACH+MINT(SS)
we talked about valentine day,
about past and stuff. so bitchy :)
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to beloved:
i looked up the sky,
and i no longer saw your face,
but i knew you are just hiding,
behind those clouds,
behind those burdens,
behind those that you see,
i knew i could still see you.
in my heart,
the flaming eager of you,
still rages fiercely.
time has passed,
like the star turned to dust.
carry me away,
away from this lonely land,
longing have i waited,
waiting for a dream,
a redemption,
to be redeemed.
withlove,
Valentine.
fading away; 1:16 AM
Tonight, i saw you.
I wasn't tailing, neither was i stalking, nor following.
Well, i do take that route at times, usually around 11, before the bubble tea store closes.
I know its funny, i know you saw me,
but we haven talked since then,
i dunno how i should start a conversation,
and i know i would only make a fool out of myself if i run over and talked.
we never talked in school anymore, our class is just beside/opposite one another.
out of 4 days a week, i mere walked pass you half the time, for the rest, i believed i just looked away.
i wonder what has happened..
it was my childishness i bet.
well, i didn't mean to follow behind you, but just that i saw you of the train station.
my legs carried walking the path i do not usually take unless for reasons.
its just not the bridge, you took route A, i took route B.
What CAN I SAY?
*you cant expect me to run up to her, and say sorry, and kiss her* (so fairytale)
its our mis-communication,
my childishness,
my self-centered attitude tat leaves us hanging,
not enemy, not friend, not even hi-bye.
i dunno.
when i was down the bridge, i walked pass your house, below your block.
well, since the past year, i walked there nearly over 100 times,
each time i remembered one thing.
And that one thing, i haven't stopped thinking till now.
it was tat day after chalet, i walked to you to your doorstep.
it just runs over my head, over and over.
and till now, it is me, that leave a "hate" over your forehead when you see me.
but it is entertaining when i see your joyful and energetic attitude in school!
it amaze me how so much thing crumbles on you, and you can still be so (one word) "Wohoo"
*RESPECTS*
I walked passed, just now, a cool breeze blew by and gone, the breeze smelt like the cool morning breeze in the very morning, we sat at the rocks by the beach.
i still kept your letter, and the strepsil.
I rmb the last time i read it, i had my eyes wet.
The letter is painful.
Well, i dun expect you to read this blog, and den come telling me how much we are friends again.
*wishful*
my last post, the one tat is for you, i know, its very very hurtful? maybe..
guys like me, dun even think about bothering them.
I'm a emotional guy with no sense of humor.
And very much i'm trying to change that.
things haven been on my side recently, and i'm really down on my luck.
not very well.
changed my look, changed myself.
got to be a better man.
And i know you wont be coming round this blog anytime sooner.
so, i would say..
I'm sorry. And Lots of "JIAYOUS" for your work.
And one thing, you are being missed by an old friend you knew from tuition.
fading away; 12:53 AM
