wow, 2 birthday wishes in advance.
hmm.. i wonder..
Desire and Carmen wished me. Oh my!
So sweet xD.
Erm, did i spell wrongly? oopX. I mean Desiree!! hehe :P
Thanks girls.
Miss u guys alot. miss sitting down and talk, wasting time.
u guys are like my adultery partner! xD
i was just joking..
I really miss u guys, and that is serious.
life hasn't gotten any better, my search for that person has been vain.
shag!
but still.. life goes on!
fading away; 6:36 PM
who is she..
who is that gurl?
nvm..
cant be bothered..
i spent too much time on girls.
i wanna go pasir ris and ton!!
OmG! anyone up to it?
friday night?
yeah baby!
fading away; 8:20 PM
O_o, phew.
wow! what a night!
my body still aches..
anyways..
i been feeling kind of ..
i dun even know what i am feeling now.
complicated?
i dunno! hell!
If you guys cant see this, get it from me. it's damn funny!
fading away; 8:53 PM
oh.. i just watched the show, Love actually..
its a pretty nice show..
Sweet, lovely, touching.. but it has nude scenes.. i guess..
o yeah.. i managed to know to Englishmen are more attractive than usual people..
because the way they speak?
and the way the gurls in america wants to SHAG with them so much!
because of the way they speak..
Holy Christ! Shag is a word = had sex.
Anyone wants to Shag?!
fading away; 11:36 PM
Hahaha..
Emo posts..
i'm just a boi..
i need to grow up..
Ang moh boi from today onwards.
dun talk to me in chinese ah. u dare i will kick ur ass
fading away; 2:28 PM
it seems that secrets are being kept..
friends.. so called friends..
i thought transperancy brings trust.
i'm wrong.
cool..
fading away; 10:11 PM
I have started to question myself. Question my own faith.
Question of my existence, question about what i have did.
i have a little confession to make, i have enjoyed myself.
be it watching pornography, be it jacking myself, be it intercourse.
i had my filled, my joy, excitement.
but today, it seems forever to pass. I questioned my faith about myself.
for the past 15+ years of my life, i never enjoyed having a relationship,
because no one wanted me.
i was being toyed like a fool, and called stupid for being a fool.
i liked someone, but yet i stop liking that person soon after.
thats me..
and when those years passed, i stood up tall, and tell myself i need a change,
i changed.
now there i was, questioning people their faith, tellling them knowledge they dun usually think
make them learn the hard way, by getting them closer and closer.
i called myself/my type a mind-gamer.
i can read mind, thats what i usually do, and thats what my friends hate about me.
i got my ways with gurls, every smile or signal showed something.
but here i am, so ashamed of myself. she was right.. i was a creature..
i am questioning my faith here, am i right to smile at girls when i have a gurlfriend..
and i meant smile, that puts in certain signal.
i looked at gurls with lusty eyes. but i swore i have never looked up a gurl's skirt when they are walking up the bridge or escalator.
i have heavily questioned my own faith today. what is wrong with me...
i think everything about me is wrong..wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong..
i wanna go back, and rest. hide in the huge shell of mine..
until the day i find out what is wrong with me..
fading away; 8:18 PM
yawns.
pasir ris park, in the middle of the night was really fun..
friends were really great.
even though its abit boring cause there are only 4
but 4 was better than nuthing.
hahaha..
i have so much in mind..
i have given up on a lot of things recently.
so much things..
fading away; 10:40 AM
wa seh!
no more work!
Phew!!!
Yes! today at last can rest, thursday! a public holiday!
well.. of course to say this.. i kind of missing hanging out..
and and and.. i have to comment this..
dun ever step into My Mum's cuisine at Paragon!
Understand?
oh yeah.. tonight i'm gonna ton.. what weird classmates-friends i have..
haha!
fading away; 12:03 PM
as we walk.. down the lonesome road..
we will think, aback..
WHY WHY WHY?!
why are we lonely tonight?
why are we keeping ourselves awake with remembrance of our past..
WHYWHYWHY?!
why can't we just forget it, and keep walking..
why do sometimes stop in our tracks, and cry..
i have no answer, because i know nuts about love..
love is blind, i have to say..
love may be everything that we ask for
but love would not guarantee us happiness every single night..
i may be an asshole to some people..
i may be some jerks to certain people..
but i know myself well..
i believe in equivalent exchange,
for whatever things you give, u will gain something.
the law of balance..
I hurt someone, someone hurt me back
i hate someone, someone hate me back..
Who hasn't been cheated of love?
Who hasn't felt lonely and pain before..
we walked that route many times,
its ok to cry, for i will cry with you
its ok to whine, for i will whine with u too
God promised us that, den i bet he will do it.
i Have alot of things in mind..
i wan this i wan that
i wan that hot lady i saw on the streets
i wan that cute innocent girl i flirted with..
but seriously, am i really wanting that much?
or is it just a certain want? or maybe a NEED? *winks*
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The moment i kissed you
i knew it need you
the moment i held your hands
i knew that this was the hands i want to age with
the very moment you left me
my heart died..
Is this how u felt?
it must be painful..
those kind of suferring, and aches..
you sure bet a lot of courage into this, to pick yourself up again
god bless you, i hope that you will find your own protection again..
for we are friends :)
fading away; 12:23 AM
oh my god..
i just came back from work
i still have fever
and i feel like i just been ran down by a train
Holy Cow!
Yawns.. 2 more days of work onli. haha
jia you! i know i can do it!
i'm so bored now..
Yawns.. anyone got anything interesting to do?
fading away; 11:51 PM
i watched the show, "the Game Plan"
its hilarious, and totally nice!! Well of course, i have to say, The rock really has a good body
I'm starting to put on weight, i'm gonna eat lots of food. i'm gonna train the body!
I feel that i'm "small" in some sense. I'm gonna train, and tighten it.
yeah baby!
1,2 1,2 1,2 1,2
fading away; 12:39 AM
This is my 100th post!! WOOO!
O yeah, i'm in class. Today is thursday, and 1st of Nov.
Haha, i'm so stressed.. why?
cause i'm feel like i'm having a fever and feeling really sick in class now
STRESS, omg!
Today is culture. Only 1 question! Does the building shape us, or vice versa?
Haha! Fainting..
fading away; 1:45 PM
