troubled teen...

1.26.2007

hurted..

fading away; 10:04 PM

she isn't any more beautiful. she doesn't shone out radiant anymore. it's all crushing and tembling down. i dislike u is all i can say..

fading away; 11:01 AM

1.25.2007

shen bing le. which means i'm sick. not onli suffering from heaty cough, also suffer from flu. cold morning.. sorry to made u wake up so early. anyways.. see like i say so. whenever i need a frd. they will never be there. but still. at least thank for caring at the end of the day. :) i appreciate.

life indeed has many up and down.. i really do hope that my up part is coming.. soon..

fading away; 10:09 PM

1.23.2007

i guess after today. we might meet up lesser. mayb nt meet anymore.. i once told u.. if i were to become an angel, who will i guard? i will guard u. M - E is me. dont worry. i'm prepared le, used to this kind of endings anyway. :D

fading away; 7:06 PM

1.22.2007

tick.. tick.. tick.. as the clock ticks by. i learn to love. love like a fool. onli love. :D

but still. i still cant find those frds.. really.. when will they even rmb me? when they need me? truthfully lor.. i really dunno how to say.. nvm ba.. i dun need true frds. i need to learn to be mr no. 1 be4 i get true frds. and u know what are true frds? true frds are frds that will call u, and sincerely say thank you to u. a thank you that brings love. so had u found urs?

fading away; 9:54 PM

1.19.2007

hao nan guo hao nan guo.. so many things i wan to say out.. so many things that i wan to cry out about.. but i cant find anyone to talk to.. i cant find anyone there to hear me out. i feel so lonely.. hao Ji muo... Hao tong ku..

I really cant believe.. that the person i see of u.. are actually a liar in disguise.. i really cannot handle the truth anymore.. i trusted u so much in everything, i believed u. but all of those, i wont hate u. i will still protect, until the day when u feel that u no longer need me, till that day, be well..

1st time ever when i searched my handphone, i can no longer find a contact that i can talk to.. even a trustable frd of 4 yrs cannot be seen anywhere near me... so lonely.. i do not have any true frd.. but i see that everyone at least have 1.. big brother isn't a true frd, his a brother there for me.. but i wont look for him, he has enough problem to handle, i won't let him share my burden. The F5, we may be a gang, but i juz feel weird to open up my problems to them.

is it that as long as i juz change the way i talk to people, i would get acknowledgement? and fit in? is it? i really hope so..

fading away; 9:23 AM

1.18.2007

if those words are true. i might juz be the most happiest man on earth. Anyway, i joined a new group, The Fantastic 5, hehe. Too bad eric today start in camp, if not we would be enjoying ourselves. Haha.

I hope life is juz happy.. Juz like everyday.. Like today would be a new today, another day would be a better 1.

fading away; 10:17 PM

1.07.2007

love isn't about money.
love aint about sex.
love is all about seeing her smile.

*not me, no worries*

my day.. 7.1.07
Went to church.. alot of familiar faces.
but still alot of unfamiliar faces. but still. saw her face, 2 yrs ago saw it.
2 yrs from then, i still see it. haha.. how unfaithful i had been eh? :x
yeah, i felt it too.. dun blame me my brothers and sisters. till today i finally knew the reason why i dun like going to church.. it's becos i dun fit in, i'm juz odd. why would i be odd? cause they enjoy talking about guitar and rock, but all in my head is how to get more of a fulfilling life.. i love to talk to them about guitar and rock, i like to learn, but it's juz so not me to enjoy it..

i ain't no new believer, i made a pact, i will love god onli, no matter what.. i will stay at church no matter how odd i am. i will try and fit in, i will do my best to be me.. me.. yupx.. ME/ haha

o.. saw a gurl today.. she looked like her.. and HER.. it's juz like.. the both of them add together = her.. omg.. i think i am mad to think about it.. haha its ok.. juz think think.. she innocent innocent, so i wont have lusty thoughts over dinner.. HAHA :X so not me to say that :X bleah.

fading away; 12:20 AM

1.03.2007

those words are the most hurting words i have heard.. but thank you. it woke me up. those words may be painful, but i guess it wont be more painful that what i have incurred. sorry is the onli word i can say.

i am a veri veri childish person. from past till now.. i'm a selfish and childish, insensible person. had been.. and always been...

fading away; 11:37 AM