troubled teen...

4.04.2009

so what..
its just..
right, i miss you.
i dreamt about u.
i can't stop myself from looking thru my messages,
at those messages that u sent me.
but so what, you are still not gonna be mine.
u already had someone else.

i did told myself very harshly that i have to let you go.
to move on, and returning to the past was impossible.
just a random something i thought of,
when i was thinking about you,
because i accidentally fell back in love with you.

ngoh oi lei, was the words that i recite when i was still in my mum's womb.

Je t'aime, was the words that curdled my lonely nights as a baby.

Ich liebe Dich, was the words that taught me abc in pre-school.

Wa ai li, was the words that recite even in the darkest night thru my puberty stages.

Ai ishiteirru, was the words that brings forth my every dreams and happiness.

Sarang hae yo, was the words that puts a smile in my everyday.

Wo ai ni, are the words that hasn't left my heart.

I love you, are the words i wish i can tell you everyday before we go to bed.

_________

its just random words that been in my heart for a long time.
and yeah, to people who really wanna laugh at me. yes
this is the best time, i'm so unattached, and people whom i really love, and lost because of my egoistic, my manliness, my harsh, and unpromising attitude brought upon this.
yes yes, laugh at me.
i thought i can do it.
i thought i can just put it down, and go away.
i'm angry, i'm pissed, but am i suppose to even feel this way?
i did better the few previous time.
just take it as it is another time, and let it off, and go away.
and start a new one.
yeah right, its so easy to be done.
and why i am left out here,
feeling so lonely, and sad.

jiayou jiayou! Roy, u can do it. its just a phonecall away.

*devilishroy* just stay away from ur phone for now.
*angelishroy*just call her, do it!

ok, sorry for that Role Play.

fading away; 1:26 AM