I have started to question myself. Question my own faith. Question of my existence, question about what i have did. i have a little confession to make, i have enjoyed myself. be it watching pornography, be it jacking myself, be it intercourse. i had my filled, my joy, excitement.
but today, it seems forever to pass. I questioned my faith about myself. for the past 15+ years of my life, i never enjoyed having a relationship, because no one wanted me. i was being toyed like a fool, and called stupid for being a fool. i liked someone, but yet i stop liking that person soon after. thats me..
and when those years passed, i stood up tall, and tell myself i need a change, i changed. now there i was, questioning people their faith, tellling them knowledge they dun usually think make them learn the hard way, by getting them closer and closer. i called myself/my type a mind-gamer. i can read mind, thats what i usually do, and thats what my friends hate about me. i got my ways with gurls, every smile or signal showed something.
but here i am, so ashamed of myself. she was right.. i was a creature.. i am questioning my faith here, am i right to smile at girls when i have a gurlfriend.. and i meant smile, that puts in certain signal. i looked at gurls with lusty eyes. but i swore i have never looked up a gurl's skirt when they are walking up the bridge or escalator. i have heavily questioned my own faith today. what is wrong with me... i think everything about me is wrong..wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong..
i wanna go back, and rest. hide in the huge shell of mine.. until the day i find out what is wrong with me..
fading away; 8:18 PM
Roy.
I like R&B
Saggitarus
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DOB231189
Republic Poly
Words of Inspiration
Once you move ahead,
there is no turning back.
And no one knows,
when will we ever talk again.
